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  it’s 1.21am(friday).. and yet i still haven go on bed… it might just a good reflection of my 2nd year life…  i’m still awake not because i’m watching movies or playing games.. just tat i’m still studying…

  recalling back the memories of my 1st year… when i was in 1st year, i always thought that 2nd year might have more time to study compare to 1st year.. coz 1st year need to involve in the "do-ing" part while 2nd year involve in the "planning" part more often.. however, things never go as my thought… 2nd year not only have to "PLAN" but also involve directly into the "do-ing" part..

  my 2nd year actually kicked-off earlier than most of my frens, coz i was the facilitator or PM, as the term we use in UM, during the orientation week… the exp as a pm and as a freshies is totally different!!!!!!! when i was a freshies, i just follow what the PM said.. but as a PM, i have to think of what i’m going to say out as my words will be followed by 400+ freshies… it’s a great burden.. moreover, i was the cheerleader… every movement of mine was examined and observed by 400+ ppl(at least)… phew~~ However, i enjoyed my PM exp as much as my freshies exp.. why? i’d learnt a lot of things thru the PM training camp and during the orientation week.. i’m a betterman and more mature than last semester..

  now, cont’ with the life after orientation… i’m one of the organisers of the interaction week of my faculty.. i’m the vice director.. well, once again, i’m holding great responsibility.. at the same time, i’m the vice director(again ;p) for the cc trip (cc = chinese community) and also the bureau head of NVC (National Varsity Counselling).. u can imagine, meetings after meetings… it’s so torturing!!!!!! althought i know that 2nd year have greater responsiblity, but, sometimes i’ll struggle and torn in between the "angel side" and "evil" side of my thoughts.. (etc going for meeting or not?)

  haiz… why is life so busy and full of challenges??

  however, when i try to sit down , and think with another perspective.. i found out that , even though life is busy and tiring.. but once i persevere and keep on walking foward.. when the project is finished and i looked back.. i gain more than i lose… i’ve gain frenship, exp, comm skills, planning skills and plenty more.. then, i laughed at myself.. why i have to merungut? when i’m having problems, i still have the almighty God with me.. what can stop me? what can worry me? haha~~

  lastly, i wish that everyone who read my blog will gain something or at least, remind u of the rewards u’ll get at the finishing line… God Bless you.. Praise the Lord.. Hallelujah..

    foo.. long after a relatively busy 1st semester, i was being able to go back to d place where i found my soul , my purpose of living — Agape Family Ipoh. a year after leaving d place on a rainy day, i stepped in Agape Family again with a different status.. as a ex-student or so called "social-worker". i was so glad tat God had given me tis fantastic opportunity to go back to Agape.

    it’s a total relief for me as i found that i’m losing myself bit by bit to d cursed one. i was living like no other than a survivor of d society , a carnivor rather than d original God-made creature. i was so depressed n scared. i was afraid of losing myself again as the time passed on. i dun want to waste all the effort n price i’d pay for during my stint in Agape. i’m afraid tat one day i’ll find my self wake up and planning on wicked things rather than things that delights God. i was so afraid. d society was so realistic that it doesn’t allow the survive of God’s children. i’m facing things & situation where i never imagined or confronted before. but thank God that i was giving d opportunity to go back to Agape again n thank God that He helped to perserve my heart & soul from d wicked one. he never abandoned me or letting me go.

    ps micah n aunty becky, thanks for letting me to stay in agape. thanks for giving me the opportunity to stay in agape n to rediscover n redeem myself. thank you. although we met for a few days only, but i really appreciate to the genourous hospitality u had shown to me. thanks a lot. wish that both of u can get well soon. ps micah, i also pray that ur ear disease will recover soon n most importantly, recover fully ! n THANK YOU for letting me to push-ups 600 times within 3 hrs. haha!! actually i really appreciate d high-tempo game though i lost to u. but as long as i can get fit, it doesn’t matter lar.. but i was a bit disappointed for not being able to play soccer along side u. but never mind, still got time, we’ll play again next time. by that time, i’ll show u sublime skill n technique.. haha!!

    i must say a thousand of thank you to sis Michelle (my lovely GuGu) for helping me to stand up again. thank you for ur sincere advices. thank you for scolding me as i had never been scolded by any1 since my departure from Agape. ur words had really woke me up. ur words had pulled me down from my arrogant n overwhelming self-confidence. thanks for being my true n sincere friend. i mean it !! "a true friend’s not only speaks delighting words but also saying tough words to remind you." Thank you.

    sis ping, thank you for cheering me up n playing with me during the holiday stint. thank you for ur coffee.(^.~) thank you for everything. but i hope that you dun angry with me as i never thought or planned to use u to tresspass sis michelle. i just did it spontaneously, i never thought of d sequences. sorry if i caused u any trouble. sis winnie, thanks for keeping my stuff during d stint. thanks for not complaining any word when i asked u to go upstairs n pass my stuffs to me. oh ya, pls keep my house key with u as i’ll be coming back to take them one day. thank you !

    "ba geh" Soon , thank you for accompany me to play football during that few days. thanks for playing guitar with me n singing songs with me. i really enjoyed singing though i always off-pitch. thank you for giving me a exciting period by letting me to push-up so much! REALLY THANK YOU WO!! just kidding lar.. i was so happy to have the chance to partner u in ping-pong and beat d ps.micah-yin mun pair and hoo-sim pair. Do remember, we r d greatest partner ! haha!! kwai sim , thank you for playing n "teaching" me to play ping-pong again n thank you for buying me so many food to eat as well as bringing me to eat delicious food. thanks a lot. hoo n pin, thank you for going out with me so many times. thanks for shopping with me n bringing me yum cha. thanks a lot. i appreciate that a lot. Bro John (my smart KeBa), thanks for "Giving" me a lot of fun (haha!!).. i really appreciate our conversation as u always joking around. thanks for bringing me out also. debby, i’m so glad to see u had grown up n started to show ur leadership. i can see that u r no longer that "t-bag" anymore. hope that ur wisdom ll grow with ur age. oh ya, thanks for chit-chatting with me. Guys, really thanks a lot! Love you all!! muackzz..

    Last but not least, i must mention tat i’m glad to see d progress that my dear "son" had made after my departure. nicholas, ur cantonese had improved a lot, n no longer a "si yeh" liao. ai xian, though u r still as "cnn" as u were, but i did see ur progress in carrying out duties n responsibilities. i dun really see u complaining a lot. it’s a GooD sign. Yu, i also sees that u had been able to find God. i can only hope that ur heart n passion to God will never fade away. but do remember, studies is also very important. try to consider to start schooling again la. My "son" , continue to make progress. learning is a life-long process, never give up easily ! my cousin , yen, try to suit & adapt urself into d new environment. u’ll find it a place full of joy & peace once u really open ur heart. u’re not alone.

    Above all, i must thank the Most-high and Almighty one. Praise the Lord! halleluyah!!

Helo my fellow frens!!

it’s been really a looooooooooong time i’d never meet u all ler… so so so miss u all lar !!!

1st of all, i want to clarify tat i’d never forgot u alll.. it’s just like i was being too busy in my Uni… i neeeed to disappear for a while, coz i got loads of activities need to take part, meetings need to attend, assignments need to finish & ………

anyway, u all shouldn’t forget me leh… coz i promise u all , whenever i’m free sure i’ll find u all de… for example, find u GUYS play futsal, find u GALS to shopping , etc… but unfortunately, i think i’ll not be free untill next semester… *sigh… i’d never shopping for a long time lar… never watch a movie for long time either…. n also never play futsal for a long time……. *sigh !!

apart from tat, i really need u all to support me in prayer lar… i’d got sick since d very 1st week i got into Uni… i’d never fully recover since then….. pity on me.. i’d went to d clinic twice in a month leh… n eaten loads of ’strepsils’(till i’m having toothache!!)n cough medicine…. i dunno how many $$ i’d spent on these things liao….. i think it’s enough for me to buy a new mp4 player liao…(perhaps ^.^)

then, about my Uni ar? i dunno much about my Uni.. but i know quite a lot about my college(my hostel) - 7th residential college/ college ZA’BA (d elite group of college in UM!!).. 1st of all , my college can be consider as d busiest college in UM , contains most chinese student… hence, my college is d BEST college in UM!! n my badge is d Best among d Best, Cream of d Creams !! Yeah~~ (n my college song is cool also~~)

moreover, d CC(chinese comunnity) in my college is d BEST CC also!! our seniors r d Best n Kind seniors!! they always think of our advantage be4 theirs !! they r very willingly to committ themselves to us… they can even stay in d IS(intelectual section) untill 4am to help us sign though they got class at 8am on d next day.. i really salute them a lot !! they r so willingly to give their full committment….. they seldom say NO to our request…. I LOVE Ya, senior-seniors!! then, our MKC(malam kebudayaan Cina) during d FZ(Fiesta ZA’BA) is a well-known activity in UM… if my fellow frens got any free time, u can come n have a look… coz every member in CC ll participate in tat MKC, including me… i just cant wait to kick-off tis event !!

then, i want to briefly introduce my econs faq…1st of all, i have to walk around 10-15minutes to reach my faq… it’s not a short yet not a long journey.. but if u imagine, i have to walk to it under hot sun n maybe need to walk to there several times in 1 day(for sure i’ll lost my weight^.~) then, our faq have a very very famous "travel point".. it’s d "batu caves" of UM… coz our faq have d longest n tallest staircase in UM… thus, i dun think ill be gaining any weight in d next 3 yrs (tis d advantage to study in econs faq, yeah~~).. n 1 thing i must mention… my faq consists a ‘freezer room’ - dewan kuliah 1…… everytime i got my lecture in tat DK1, my response is - OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! d air cond is really freeeeeeeeeeezing cold ! i think tat’s 1 of d reason my sickness hadn’t really fully recover(i got 5 classes in d DK1 everyweek…) n each 1 of us MUST bring along our jacket whenever v got class in tat DK1 !

well, my fellow frens, i think i’ll stop at here lar… i’ll try to report every interesting event or incident tat took part in my Uni life frequently lar… so, my frens, TAKE CARE !!

I LOVE U ALL !!

MUACCCCCCK!!

Date: 15/07/06

Time: 11.24pm

Place: Home laa..(more accurate - my bro’s room)

my recent updates!?

nahh…… dun want to talk more lar… just came back from UM..

Thus, my recent updates is

S + I + C + K = SICK

today i’m very happy !!

I got d offer to study in University of Malaya !! it really suprise me !!

i would never thought of it tat it ll happen!!

4 yrs had passed by, i’d totally transformed from a jerk to a better man !!

i have a lot of ppl to thank for..

but above all , i MUST thank God for giving me d opportunity to stay in Agape Family(ipoh) to re-learn my life.. i must not forget d strong n ceaseless support from my lovely families especially my mom , n also my mentor - Pastor Micah n fellow staffs of Agape Family… Not to forget r my teachers in SMK Anderson.. Last but not least, my fellow frens in Agape Family n my colleagues in SMK Anderson…

Thanks for all da faith n supoorts u guys had given to me…

I LOVE U GUYS !!

muackkk….

I’m really very happy ler !! There r not a single word or phrase can describe my happiness at tis moment !! THANK GOD !! Yeah ~

• Date: 29th May 2006
• Time: 3.30pm
• Venue: My Home
• Mission: Dye my hair(1st ever time in my life)

  Today, i’ll try something i’d never done in my life… i was shopping with miss X in a shopping complex n walked past GuarXXXX(a famous franchise pharmacy*to protect d privacy of d pharmacy*). Then, an idea flashed thru my thought - why dun i try to dye my hair? cut d story short, miss X had recommended me to buy a <permanent color pack> which ll turn my hair into <dark golden brown>(my ideal colour for my hair^^)… This incident took place 3 days ago lor (26th May 2006). Soon after, i’d put some color pack at d back my ear… n it showed no signs of allergic(Thank GOD !! ^^)

  3days after d incident, i’d decided to finalize all d matter after consoled with my ever pretty mommy(because i’d never dyed my hair ma^^). My heart was beating fast, i was so nervous n yet exciting to see how my hair will look like! I put on a pair of plastic glove, mixed d color pack with d creme developer in a plastic bowl… Finally, i’d prepared to put d mixture on my hair !!(so nervous leh!!)

  1st, i dip d mixture with a comb, n then i applied it on my hair… i combed my hair thoroughly, from front to back, from left to right. i’d repeated tis for around 20 minutes till - every single side of my hair had been applied with d mixture..(but then i can smell a very disgusting chemical smell ler.. made me feel like vomit.. Darn it !) Then, i leave it  to gradually develops d colour… (i feel like my hair is very very hard, like i’d put some glue on my hair~).. after 30 minutes, i rinsed my hair thoroughly till d water runs clear(i feel like cant wait to look at d mirror to see how my ‘new’ hair color look like !! ^^) Well, of coz i never forget to put on some conditioner on my hair lar(coz dying hair ll damage tis hair de!!).. after i’d rinsed d conditioner, i ran to d mirror on d 1st hand……. Guess Wat HAPPENED ??

My hair colour never changed… it’s still black ! n yet i’d wasted so many effort to ‘dye’ my hair!! Darn it!! wat d fish!!

                - Mission Failed-

haizzz….

i oledi have enough with all these rumours n gossips…..

i’m here to clarify tat i belong to no1, n i never fall on any1 seriously… i enjoy my single lifestyle very much… pls dun be too ’sensitive’ …

when i’m close with some1, it doesn’t mean tat i’d fell on her… i always treat my frens with pure n sincere heart… but tat doesn’t mean i’m 1 who can other can ’spend’ for…. i’m ain’t stupid… bluek ;P

final word, i’m still me , belongs to no1… still single n plan to be single in d near future… pls.. dun link me with tis n tat… i’m aint any kind of d celebrities.. there’s no use to make any gossip or rumours out of me.. no 1 ll be interesting in it… sorry my fren, if i’d said any harsh words..

haizz…..

i’d been vacant since May liao ler…

feel quite boring at home… always stay at home, do some house chores, online, play pc games, watch movie n do some exercise… i’d oledi tiring of these kinds of living style ler…

i wish to live a more exciting n more meaningful lifestyle…

wat should i do leh?? quite confuse ler… just hope tat i can start studying again as soon as possible ler….

about my relationship ar??

well, i still keep on my own prinsip, dun wish to start any relationship so soon…

i’m really enjoy to live a single life.. coz i dun even capable to take care of myself, i dun dare to find a gf to make her to suffer as i do… so i would rather be single 1st ler.. hahahaha..

but then, it doesn’t mean tat i dun wish to know more gals leh.. i also wish to make more new frens de mah…

somehow, it’s ridiculously tat recently, i’d found out tat i’m having a minor crush on some1… she’s as active n playful like me… we can sit down n chat about our problems… well, as wat i’d said.. i still dun wish to start anything yet.. wat i can do is to keep tis matter in my heart.. n let it be naturally , according to God’s will n plan ler.. Hehe…

well, these r d recent updates of myself ler….

i know how to take care of myself de ler, my frens…

need not to worry about me..

My frens… This is my favourite song of all..

hope u enjoy it..

軌跡

怎麼隱藏我的悲傷﹐失去你的地方。

你的髮香散的匆忙﹐我已經跟不上。

閉上眼睛還能看見你離去的痕跡。

在月光下一直找尋那想念的身影。

如果說分手是苦痛的起點﹐

那在終點之前我願意再愛一遍。

想要對你說的不敢說的愛﹐

會不會有人明白。

* 我會發着呆,然後忘記你﹐接着緊緊閉上眼。

想着那一天會有人代替你﹐讓我不再想念你。

我會發着呆﹐然後微微笑﹐接着緊緊閉上眼。

又想了一遍你溫柔的臉﹐在我忘記之前。

心裡的眼淚﹐模糊了視線﹐我已快看不見。

Hope u LUV tis song… *.~